WHY SOMETIMES I PREFER TO BE ALONE..................

i knew i had to say it....as usual i have done the test this morning..and i feel really in relief...one more test to go and more revision to go ...damn!!!!!!!!!!!!

after class at 3.30 p.m ...i straightly go to my room and doozed off......sweet revenge!!..but i wake up early at 6 p.m...got nothing to do ...and then i try to surf the net since the connection was good actually...

i think this is what i do everyday ..same old routine ...and i enjoyed it!!!...even though sometimes i feel boring but i've got nothing to do than sits hours in front of my laptop...truth to be told..i'm all alone by myself...................

i prefer to be alone sometimes because this is the time that i think i need to cool down.....is not that i don't like meeting with friends ..but sometimes i end up looking so desperate and out of this world..........

i try to make friends to everyone else and show some pleasant gestures...but somehow it doesn't get any positive reply...i don't want them to reply faster...just a gestures that they like me...but nothing happen...instead what i get it's that look"youre-so-bitchy-you're-better-shut-up"...that kind of thing

i try to be pleasant to everyone but they don't like it....what should i do?.....maybe i have to tone down a little bit..but there are some friends who know me ...and they'll be like.."eh....what's wrong with you today...any problems?"...if i was moody for the whole day....

that's why i prefer to be alone because i think i am a better person than if i am with my friends

so..i'm trying to be more pleasant and not to have the bitchy kind of attitiude.................