Friday, April 20, 2007

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU FEEL DOWN.....


Today is horrendous...I can't explain much about the exam just now. Totally sucks. I spend hours reading and understanding the notes (actually less than hours) and worse is, nothing sticks to my memory and I can't remember anythings at all. I have read about the carotenoids and types of it but instead the question ask for phenolin subtances that give bitterness in fruit juices....damn!!!


The thing is why she(lecturer) given us the notes in first places..when all the questions are from the book itself?...maybe it was my fault after all..because I didn't read that book..Fortunately that my carry marks on the subject was enough

On the other hands, I was feeling very happy before the exam start. I just couldn't explain what happen after the exam. Surely and slowly the happy feelings turn into something bitter, and that is not good..and it is not about the test either.

It's just that something happen after the test and i really felt that I'm not good . I want to scream and yell but my voice is not coming out. Being the good friend, I just smile, smile..and smile......but deep down inside I was sad

I was wondering ...why some people have some 'advantages' ?...
They don't need a lot of effort and they'll get what they want or they have something that I myself have to put a lot of effort in time and money just to get what I want. I'm totally green with envy. In fact, I'm always in green. I think it's not fair that some people that have been 'blessed' and really don't put much effort for it but nevertheless, they'll have that 'thing' , something that I want to achieve but I can't ...and my confidence level is totally going downward......i'm really depressed now.....i just couldn't make myself as happy as i am before...even though I still smile and put on my joyful personalities...but my self esteem is nowhere......i think it is decreasing now!!!


I've just need somebody to express my feelings right now, someone that i could talk too.... but i don't know where i can find one.
Sometimes being alone sucks....just because I don't open my heart, doesn't mean that I'm vulnerable...

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popmonkey said...

did u get enough sleep? sleeping improves memory. for things you've learnt, you dont need to read them repetitiously. try to just recall them back. and test whether you've got all the points covered or not. thats the smarter way to learn.

as for the "thing" (whatever it might be), get over it already. i dont see any reason why you should be envious. i think u better look at yourself from different perspectives. look at your good qualities and how you can make them outweigh your weaknesses. try to overcome your weaknesses. the thing about human beings, we better off over time. it's good to know your weaknesses but at the same time think what you can do about them instead of just asking why you are having them and not others. we all have our own problems, you see. its about how we handle it.

ak_0143 said...

joey... u know ur self yu strengths and weaknesses of yours... kenali diri dulu...

bila dah tau siapa ko sebenar, try to adapt with the situation... setiap hari adalah cabaran untuk kita...

psal test, itu mmg berlaku... the least we can do, jangan ulang lagi di masa hadapan...

cheer up joey, u need to stabilise urself in this period of exam...

 
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